I don't understand relationshipsand maybe I never will
me neither :(
>no time for love
Maybe something nice will happenWhy would anything nice happen
>when she rejects your lunch invitation
>>7074Keep it up, you can't know how to shrug off failure and you can't know how to succeed unless you try!
>>7075I think giving up is important
>>7076only sometimesgirls are girls, boys are boys
>>7077it would be nice if girls could be forward tooalso it would be nice if I could read minds
Today went well
The last couple didn't
Maybe something will happen tomorrow
Even lacking in love, we're never alone.We've got each other and our comfy place we call /swt/.I can't say that I love any of you, but I can say we're in this together.
Who needs love when you have howler
I felt like that for a long time, but recently my views have changed.I always tried to deny attachment, and therefore suffering, and it led me to meet and associate with people that I felt I could dispose of at any time. I know that it soundscliche as fuck, but you have to love yourself first, then good people will come naturally.
>>7115I always felt (and still feel) that struggle and suffering is normal and that my goal was to overcome itand that I should have a relationship because it wouldn't be fair to the other personbut recently my loneliness overtook me and I have been tryingonly failures so far but better progress in the last 3 months than all before that combined
>>7116That's great! I hope that the steps get larger and larger over time :) Sometimes it takes a little light
>>7117 oops.Sometimes it takes a little light ahead to keep your head upI still struggle day to day to recognize that I deserve love as much as anyone else, andit seems that the more that I accept that and allow myself to be disappointed or hopeful,the more positive and productive I become in every aspect of my life. I hadn't realized howhard it was - exhausting really - to constantly work and care for and protect myself when I didn't love myself enough to even think I deserved it!
>>7118>recognize that I deserve love as much as anyone elseI still can't accept thisI feel like everyone is morally equal but that doesn't imply I deserve loveMore like my desire to start a family prompts me to do somethingI have had less relationship experience than the average high schooler but I already have my bachelorsI am being forced into normalitymaybe that's good
>>7119It's funny you mention family as a driving force - one big realization that I always knew but never really feltwas that the only people that I should consider romantically are ones that I would accept into my family.That led me down more introspective roads, and I realized that my big problems with marriage and relationshipsmight stem from being a bastard child and feeling like I don't belong in my own family.
>>7119 >I am being forced into normalityHow do you mean?
>>7120InterestingI was born out of wedlock and both my mother and father left me to my grandparentsStill never met my mother>>7121I am so afraid of being aloneAnd my continued loneliness is depressingBefore the last 6 or so months I had nothing more than acquaintances and never had a relationshipNever anyone that I could go out and do stuff withFor so long it was a horrible feeling that I got the courage to do something about
>>7122I think that when taken together as cause and effect, everything that you described is a normal reaction. The nature of loneliness, depression, alienation, and other negative factors is that the experience of any one of them brings up the others and reinforces the feeling. Also, in a biological sense, a lot of this comes from hardwired tendencies that serve to propagate the species. Wanting to be in a pack and start a family is normal, and moving to make those things happen is also a normal reaction to that pain. It’s not crazy. It is a signal that your natural psychological needs are not being met and I mean that in the most compassionate way possible.
Ok I'm no longer in pain over recent rejectionHealing has occurred
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